Seriously, the word soon is pure evil. It has been over a week now since Placement sent me an email about October departure. What are they waiting on? Please can I have an invite? Pretty please?
I am getting really anxious (I know I should be patient and I have been for over 4 months). 9 weeks until October 1. The anxiety of this unknown limbo is literally making me inoperable. It is all I think about, every single minute of every single day. I JUST WANT TO KNOW. I am barely getting by at work. I feel like I am going to cry all the time. The stress is getting to me. And it is making me fat! I am trying to calm myself, too bad it is with chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream with Ritter Sport and Nutter Butters.
Every day that goes by my self-esteem plummets a little more.
Honestly, leaving in 2012 would probably be better. I would have more time to save up money. The countries slated for October though seem like a perfect fit to me.
Dear Peace Corps, please stop playing games with my heart 🙂 (and now the backstreet boys will be stuck in my head alllll day)