Invitation Envy

Definition: pure frustration experienced by people who have not yet received the big blue envelope. They take this frustration out by secretly despising anyone with an invite. Really, they are happy for all those people, but think: “wahhh, where is my invite?”

I have been medically cleared since March. It is so frustrating to feel like you keep getting swept further and further under the rug.

I emailed my placement specialist today, just as a friendly reminder that she said she would get back to me in a month.

In case you guys are wondering and haven’t seen it yet, they released the FY10 stats for where people went. It looks like quite a few countries that had business programs in FY09, no longer had anyone in FY10. The cuts for next year are going to be even more I bet.

Honestly, I am not complaining too much about waiting until next year. My job is amazing. How many times can you say you played trivia at work while wearing a Darth Vader mask? Then you were “forced” into using the Vader breathing sound over the intercom so everyone could hear.

I think right now my main anxiety is just simply not knowing anything. I would like to know a continent – if I need to start learning a language, I want to know. YARGH. Patience is a virtue, I know – but I am going on 16 months now since I first applied.

I hate having to keep this a secret from my coworkers too. I feel like I am living a double life. I want to be able to express my excitement, but honestly I don’t really have anyone to share with. I feel guilty telling my friends because they don’t want me to leave. My dad isn’t really sold on the idea yet. I can’t tell any of my coworkers because I don’t want them to think I don’t want to be there. It is just hard not having anyone to really share this application experience with (besides the internet). Sometimes I just want to vent and sit down with friends and talk it all out, but they really don’t want to hear anything about it.

I haven’t really told anyone on facebook either, for fear they might post something related to it and a coworker might see.

So, really I envy the people with invites because they can share their experience and excitement with friends. I am just stuck in weird limbo.

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4 thoughts on “Invitation Envy

  1. Hey! I feel your pain. I was nominated for business advising in Sub-Saharan Africa departing in September. I was medically cleared in February. I have not heard anything from the placement office since I received the email about budget cuts in May. I find it so annoying because I did everything so early in order to ensure that process would run smoothly but alas I am still waiting. I have been reading blogs and posts from the Future Peace Corps FB Group. I constantly see invites going out for other programs but none for business advising.

  2. I didn’t realize so many of the programs were business advising. I was so excited to be nominated for that! I was supposed to leave July/Aug and now I’ve been set back to 2012. I recently heard from placement and sent in an updated resume. Hopefully we get an invite soon even if we’re not leaving for months!

  3. I’ll throw my hat in the ring too, since I also have invitation envy! I have the same nomination as Kendrick, and I have been medically cleared since May. I got the dreaded budget cuts email, then have been emailing with a placement assistant who asked me to submit a new essay and resume. After doing that, she said a placement officer would be in touch…. in 4 to 6 weeks. Given that they have to tell you 8 weeks in advance before a departure date, if I don’t hear from a PO for another month then I definitely not going in September. I’ve been obsessively looking at other people’s blogs, and i think Kendrick is right, there don’t seem to be a lot of invitations for Business Advising. But what’s good is that on PC Wiki I see a lot more staging dates posted for October, and even one for November. So they seem to have more fall dates this year than in 2010. It’s frustrating because it seems like all the people getting the fall invitations are applicants who were nominated for the summer. Like Kendrick, I started this process really far in advance (spring 2010) because I knew I needed to leave in fall 2011. My job is ending next month and I don’t know what I will do with myself if I have to wait till 2012…

    • It feels like business advising got chopped off by the legs. I still haven’t even had my final interview. There is no way I am leaving in August. It just sucks having been medically cleared in March and just sitting around, waiting, and waiting.

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